cavetocanvas:

Edward Kienholz, To Mourn A Dead Horse, 1989

cavetocanvas:

Edward Kienholz, To Mourn A Dead Horse, 1989

Oh it’s a Friday?

So yesterday morning, I woke up to my major appeal results. It went well. Photography (yay?). I had weird feelings and thoughts, and the happy side of me was too lazy to react to this. Well, there were many reasons.

So I first thought about how this could’ve been different. How I might’ve broken down and not be able to pick myself up and stay strong for this to come, if not for her. She was there with me. Or should I say always there. Because she is either next to me, or in my mind. She has officially become the first thing that comes into my mind the moment I wake up.

And yea, getting into my second choice after all the shit and appealing, I should be jumping for joy. But I didn’t. I wondered why. Probably because I was two hundred and fifty one times happier when she officially became my girl. My girl to take care of. My girl to love. Sometimes I still can’t believe she really is mine now.

I have strong ambitions to have a great career or be great in it, but working towards starting a family with her has become more important than anything else. I have a strong desire to explore the world, but it is still second to wanting to settle down with her. I always dreamt of my perfect life. And now, I think I have taken a huge step towards it. Because she is a huge part of it.

Kinda a long “emotional” post for such a random title eh? Gosh. “Kevin, Kevin.” they’d say. But they don’t know how much these words mean to me, and how much more she means to me. I feel lucky and amazing to be in love with my twin. Okay actually now I think the title of this post should be “she is godsend”. Cheesy but yea, she is my world now.

I love you sillybobo. *makes a heart*

An hour of collecting thoughts didn’t help as much as this did when I saw it. I realised my discontentment with myself has turned into jealousy. Perhaps my perfectionism led me to wanting to be everybody. But maybe I shouldn’t be. I should settle with Kevin. Kthnxbye.

An hour of collecting thoughts didn’t help as much as this did when I saw it. I realised my discontentment with myself has turned into jealousy. Perhaps my perfectionism led me to wanting to be everybody. But maybe I shouldn’t be. I should settle with Kevin. Kthnxbye.

Am I?

As much as she’s irreplaceable to me, I’m not sure if I’m worth her time and love. She deserves love from everyone, and maybe I don’t deserve hers. I pray that she’ll be blessed with a better friend, or a twin. I pray.

Dear Twin

If past lives existed, it would take me a thousand years to figure out what ginormous deed I had done to deserve to have someone like you in my life now. And when this life is to become a past life, I’d want to be like elephants, because they are closest to remembering their past lives.

I love you so, so much.

Songs like this, isn’t about picking out flaws anymore.